Posted in Story

The Word “Why”

Have you found yourself in restless condition? When your life doesn’t run well as what you expect, when the thing goes wrong, when the problem comes to you like a knife that is ready to hurt you. Those are bad, and of course all of us don’t want it happen. If we can ask everything, of course we want to live happy forever, but it’s really impossible. In life, all of the things change. There’s no one will feel happy forever, also there’s no one will feel sad forever.

Then, when all of the bad things above happen to you, one word that may appear in your head is the word ‘why’. This simple word is sometimes very dangerous. It can make your feeling becomes worse. When this word comes, you will ask everything, anything to yourself, or to someone although there’s no one has the answer, or probably there’s no one care to listen and to help your problem. You will become worse and worse because you don’t find the answer or at least some words that will make you better. Then you will say “why it happen to me, why I get this problem, am I wrong? Why?”

Thus, what do you have to do? Give up? Or kill yourself? No, that’s not a good idea. You have to get up from that condition, don’t let yourself hurt. It’s ok if right now you feel sad, gloomy, restless, or worse. You have to remember that everything changes. You will be happy, your life will be better. You just have to be strong to face your life. You just have to wait the right time to get the happiness in your life. 🙂

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Posted in Poetry

The True Distance

I sit on my bed

Thinking and asking,

a same question everyday

But there’s always no answer

I ask to my heart about my feeling,

but the emptiness I always get

Several days ago,

The distance meant nothing

Several days ago,

Time went faster

Several days ago,

There’s such no difference

But now, they change

I really feel so far

The same distance but different condition

The true distance between us

It’s not about how far the place you are

But it’s about how far you leave this heart alone

A little difference we have

Becoming a big problem for us

What can I say, speechless

Wonder what’s wrong with this life

With my life

But still, there’s no answer

Nobody’s here

Nobody cares

I’m alone…

Posted in Poetry

Rintihan Hati

Feti Sumaryanti dan Santi Kartika

Aku terdiam
Suara hujan meneriaki telingaku
Mereka bersorak,
berteriak,
mewakili gundahku,
Meneriakkan piluku…

Dingin yang menusuk sepinya malam
Air hujan yang seolah bermain riang…
Hati penuh tanda tanya akan segala hal
Entah kapan jawaban akan aku temukan

Kudegar suara musik
Sebuah lagu tentang cinta
Entah mengapa liriknya menusuk-nusuk jantungku
Seperti billah pisau tajam
Menyayat lukaku begitu dalam
Sampai ku tak mampu teriak walau sakit,
walau perih…

Aku tak mampu berkata, tak jua mampu bicara…
Lirih dalam hatiku berkata,
aku ingin bernyanyi
Menyanyikan senandung melodi kehidupan..
Kepedihan tak ada yg tahu,
Kesakitan tak ada yg merasa…
Lalu siapa peduli?
Ingin rasanya pergi memutar waktu

Tapi tidak,
tak ingin ku berharap waktu kan terulang
Itu hanya akan memberi sebuah harapan baru
Harapan yang sesungguhnya sudah mati
Sudah hilang dari dulu
Aku hanya ingin berlari
Aku ingin pergi
Aku ingin keluar dari mimpi
Terbang ke langit yang tinggi
Sampai kudapati
Diri ini…
MATI…